hi ppl, just wanna share sumting that had recently happened to me..it started sweet and ended quite bitterly but still with the scent of sweetness...hopefully till the day i close my eyes..
it started out in October 2002...when ..
"miss...miss."...a voice from a young gentleman calling.Tasha,Sari and me who were waiting at the lift waiting for the stupid small screen to get to "G" a universal letter for "Ground" i guess.I turned back and saw Mas Annuarul Imran aka Annuar or his favourite nick "Masta"..a chinese looking guy wearing a Red basketball jersey. Not so chinese looking after all..just at a glance je..
"Hi..",he said with his arms at his waist calming himself from out of breath running just a minute ago.I smiled and replyed back.Forget about him knowing that I am actually his boss' daughter,that night we had dinner together and ever since that night, our relationship bloomed..
We started SMS'ing'. From a simple hello to a more intimate words..it was very beautiful..Our first date was during breaking fast at the Midvalley...hmm...at that moment I never thought that we would be an item for this long...4 years is considered stable dont you think so?
We were getting serious and within the 2 months,we 'declared' ourself..it wat @ his place at 5.30 pm sharp on the 8th of Decemeber 2002..was the best thing ever happened to me..and still is..
We were not that typical couples that would go out to movies and go here and there that much.We would rather spend our time at home watching DVDs or just hanging around.
The sun is not always up,on August 28 of 2004, my cuzin Didie called me asking if me and Annuar are doing fine?I said we had a tiny 'cold war'...i almost dropped my phone and my knees were too weak that i fell down when Didie told me that she saw Annuar with another girl.The girl which he claimed was his ex.I was so devastated and was very much in pain.In revenge,I hooked up with a guy whom i met up in Friendster.Bad Lela to play off his heart.Im sorry...
I never imagined that he would do that to me.I have been a very good gurl,loyal and took so much precautions in my social life..but he crossed the bar..the bar that would tumble us apart somehow..slowly..discretely..
Weeks later,he asked me to come back home and meet him.So I did.I spend a nite at his place.We talked and talked and cried over what had happened and promised it wont happened again..ever!!!
Our relationship was going pretty well..but im not denying along the way we did had some 'war'...but im not going to write those down as i want to only tell the sweet part of our relationships..
Annuar makes me happy in so many ways..but i got to admit sometimes he do gets to my nerves..sumtimes i felt like putting a gun in his mouth and shoot him..but then again...who would??no matter how irritating he was..i loved him so much that i cried thanking god that He had met me with him and make me laugh..
When ever we meet, we would cuddle up watching TV..
Hindustan on weekends . I would tickle him when he falls asleep, I would gently play with his hair..and kalau i urut dia,he would cover up both his armpits like criss cross..very cute..and he would close his eyes and smile..ooh ooh..and we do wrestle.no kidding..the real ones...not the manja2 kindda wrestling thing..Annuar has this 1 sharp tooth which he uses as his weapon and he would bite me all over..his easy access parts were my head,my arms,my
butt, and one place he would never forget to bite is my nose...
I can say we were a moderate loving couple. We dont go out to fancy restaurant that often, only occasionaly...i dunt mind having dinner at the mamak or at the thai stalls..as long as im with him..im blessed and safe. We gave each others enuff space and time. As much as he wants to be with his frens, so do i..
Annuar's fav drink would be the "nescafe tarik kurang manis" and he would only drink it when its not too hot..he luvs cheesecake..i did sometimes tried to bake 1,but most of the time it turned out not good..When it comes to food, Annuar is not very fassy..as long as its halal and sedap.
I luv him so much. And how I wish he only knew what I feel inside for him.Honestly I know it's silly of me to want him so badly but i cant keep it concealed.I see my inferiority complex kicks in and the words escape me, i'm paralyzed,so helpless when i look into his eyes..
about the break-up..i dunt know about him,but if i would to give another shot,im ready.well..he is still part of me...the split up were based on him who cant tolerate my anger management..its a sad thing ..very sad indeed because,all this while i've been closing my eyes to his doings,about him "lebihkan kawan dari gf"..he said this out loud confirming that his homies means more to him than me,but on the new year saturday weekend..30th December 2006, i burst out like a volcano..out ouf soooo many dates,this is 1 out of the full moon i have asked a favor from him..why?because he was after all on his way out and the fuel tank is full..hmm..lets keep the rest of the part P&C..
ooh i wanna share the funny part (well at least this makes me laugh bila teringat balik)...on that same day,siang tu me and
sayang annuar promised nak kemas bilik together-gether..ok la..kemas la ni sama2,but then sedang i sapu2,lap2 the furnitures dlm bilik dia,tiba2 i heard mcm suara org perempuan practice push baby out
.."phuuuuhhh....phuuuhhhh...phuuuuuhh"...and lama jugak,so i went out from annuar's room and saw him tengah BERSENAM!!!!cuba la bayang muka i mcm mana bila tgk dia guna that abs machine..tapi i diam...i pandaaang je
baby annuar and walked in back into the room..he joined me soon after and hugged me..smiling..
4 years has taught us so many things...we have been tru a lot!!!!we stayed together even tho on our early days he only owns a motorbike..any girl would ride a bike with her bf on a bike yang dah berkarat ekzos dia?no shame..i still hugged him tight riding on it..i luv him for who he is..i can still remember the nights he would fetched me up at the Kelana Jaya LRT stations..we evolved..1st he came with his motobike karat...then he upgraded him self..he fetched me with his red gilera scooter..years later..he came and fetched me with his perdana..i wonder if any gurls would stay with him like i did..we were there for each other...didnt we
darling?
i remember the first time ever he came to Kuantan to give me a visit..he stayed at my fren's house..he came to Kuantan almost every month for 4-5 months for as long as i can remember.There was this one time we met with an accident with an old dark maroon Puegeot 407..all the hussle to the police station ..and by the end of the day,we were too tired to go out for dinner..u remember tat dear?oh and last year vacation..Balok trip at the swiss garden?we had a great time didnt we?we took a slow drive at the villages and drive in town no where to go..and we had the best seafood dishes at a price of like how much???less than 100 i guess..sotong,ikan,udang..we had a great time tat nite watching the stars...oh i can still remember one of the few times Annuar came to Kuantan and we wanted to drive all to Chearting,but eventualy we got lost and we pulled over and slept dlm kreta because you were too tired to drive sbb kita sesat..owh my...sakit2 badan i first time tido dlm kreta..kancil sumore!!kreta sewa plak tu..and the next morning,batteri low because we swithed on the heater mlm tu..crazy thing i've went tru.
Annuar has been there for me.He has been very supportive of what i want to do in life
almost all he supported..tp modelling??hmm..ada la sikit .I was offered to join in a grooming class whereby the result would be me qualified to do runway modelling and such..annuar never agreed me pursuing in this line..but dia jugak lah yg teman to i every classes ever weekends...dia jugak yang hantar sana sini..love him for being there for me.. when i started my first day of practical training in MAS,he was the one yang teman i g lunch..even tho tat time i was worried if any of my dad's frens would see us togther..that wouldnt be nice would it?..but he still teman i makan..then i started my first job in Amcorp Tower in PJ.I can say he was a little relief knowing there are only females in my office..well minus the big boss of coz..he supported me when i said i wanted to jump to another company where i can build my skills and knowledge..sumtimes he was there when i needed a shoulder to cry on to...he is where i feel so safe...being in his arms makes me forget about all my other problems..our problems..when we sleep we would hold hands or he would wrap me around..the warmth of his body cool me down..and his heartbeat is my lullaby every time...
i can never imagine living without his smiles..his cheeky smiles that makes me want to kiss him all day..there are baik buruk in a person,even myself..but this guy makes me happy the most..my luv towards him is like "menatang minyak yang penuh".. but from now onwards,if he still closes his heart to accept me..then i have to bear with it as long as i can handle..
i dunt know how it happened..but,most of the time,when ever we gaduh ke..masa tu jugak lah things i never want to happen jadi pada i..there are times that kalau gaduh,i would start seeing the shadow of my nightmares..my black history ..'the guy i hate' his annoying friends..and sumtimes i got sick..i know its pathetic but its true..ada2 je yang berlaku..like one time...ada motor langgar my car la..and ada time kat kuantan dulu..my car habis minyak la..and recently my batteri kaput la..nasib baik lah my tyre tak pancit ke apa..but if that happens i know what to do..i saw and learned from Annuar on this particular night ..he changed his tyre..it may not be perfect but i think i can handle such situation..its just that,it would be better if the hero of ur life is by ur side when u needed them..
sumtimes me n my gurlfrens would chit chat about our wedding and children and bla bla bla..
perempuan mana yang tak berangan..i would imagine i would give Annuar sons,cook his fav meal,prepare his drink before he come back from work..those sort of things..and imagine us as a happy family..a wife to come home to from work,a mother to his children's future,and perhaps a grandmother to his granchildren..
he is my darling whom i hoped i can live forever with.my sweetheart.my budak tinga busuk.my everything.His last sms was on the 29th December 2006 at 2230 pm with a simple "sayang awak jugak"..And now he is no where of my sights.. :)
crying "sayang awak jugak" & "tiap hari sayang"
